yeahhhh... well..

Well hello there!
This was a bit painful, getting started on the mobile. There was an option to do it from mobiles but he says it will make me a new mobile blog. Which sounded cumbersome and uncomfortable so I decided otherwise.
But do you know what, I've decided I'm gonna go for it! after I'm done here, of course.
Kylie minogue was on telly tonite, sounded fun.
To the point now. I imagine myself doing a lot of stuff and that is probably my problem, too much imagination. Lenon would be proud :)

So just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, you were at the bottom of the barrel.. you found your self a hole and dropped further down. You twat!
This is not a dress rehearsal mate, this is the real thing, this is life. and its quietly passing you by. While you sit there on your dreary arse pretending to be a figment of your imagination. It's all grandiose when you play it out in your head, but when push comes to shove you sit there like a twat with your Dick in your hands.
I wish I could tell you that its time to take the game up a notch that its time to really get in there and take on the world. Nothing could be farther from the truth. The best and plausible course of action is to stay steady. Simple. Put your head down, make the things you have work for you. Live, with your eyes open. Embrace who you are. Stay steady and make your own breaks. Plan for them. Make it happen, time and effort not blood and sweat. Save them for later, when you can do something with them. Do good, one small thing at a time. Make your river by adding a drop at a time and when you have enough momentum, then go for it, burst the dams and reclaim what you want. But that time is not now. Now is the time when you draw the lines, when you stick to it and keep going.

DISCIPLINE, a word thrown around by institutionalists, is one of the shaping forces of life. It can come in any capacity and in a myriad of containers but you need to have a steady stream of it. There is no other way my friend. I wish I could pat you on the back, get you out and make everything better but that's not how it works. YOU have to stick in there. Keep going. Steady.
If you're going through hell, keep going. You are stood still waiting for a knight in chink. Dude, that's not your story. Steps taken forwards but sleep walking back again.

Keep the dream alive. Don't let the wonder go. Dream big.

{High hopes - pink floyd}

One sided txts

and then I had this weird and wonderful idea of documenting all the text messages I sent to her. But only the ones I sent, making it a one sided conversation, calling in all the collective web to fill in the other half. So technically it is all my intellectual property, the emotions are mine but I want You to reply this time.

How will it work though?

"Your sword 's grown old and rusty burnt beneath the rising sun, its locked up like a trophy forgetting all the things its done."

I have been plagiarising a lot lately, without giving any credit. The lyrics are from vampire weekend which Paul thought to be 'vampire weakened' when I first told him about the band. Nice thought that is. The last passage was from Paulo Coehlo's collection of short stories. Its quite a good read, in small and digestible packages. Had karelas yesterday, they were a bit tough, might just have pulled a number on my digestive system.

Listening to coke studio. its been alrite so far. the best bit was arif lohar's. probably because it was very provocative and blasphemous(ish) and partly cause a friend said she didn't like the heavily lipsticked, stuck up vixen at the mic. Karavan was good. Would like to hear more of them.

Life is a lonely battle these days. Trying to fight mediocrity and 'tunnel vision syndrome of thought' (in my head) and there in lies the problem, You see my head is not a very vast expanse thse days. dunno what has taken up all the space. Nor is it susceptible to a lot of patience. Its all gone pete tong to be honest. Need to swing back into action. I'm probably looking for that little encouragement or one little push but in my head I know that is not what I want. All I want is a sugar free ice cream and a pair of sunglasses.

What is on the other side of this road? I will get back to you with results. It might be long before I have them and I will probably be doing a lot of stuff in the mean time, but that you see my friend is the very essence of life. Perhaps I stand corrected when I look at the clouds, this is life..

Porcelain Problem

A problem is a problem. It could be a very rare porcelain vase, a delightful love affair that no longer makes any sense, or a course of action that we should abandon but which we insist on continuing because it brings us comfort.

There is only one way to deal with a problem: attack it head on. At such moments, one cannot feel pity nor be diverted by the fascination inherent in any conflict.