Rome wasn't built in a day.

Hello my friend.,
its nice to meet you again. i hope you have started to be more dynamic and active since your return from the capital. there were a lot of things i learnt on that trip. that most people behind counters are from eastern europe and that a barista can spoil a coffee by brewing it. and that sometimes its nice to get your coffee from non mass market conglomerates and the small coffee shops aren't that bad. i also learnt the joys of eating salad for a meal. I bought a salad from chop'd (yeah thats the name) I got iceberg lettuce, chick peas, beans, olives, raddish, (which cost me extra) and parmesan and chilli. i topped it off with olive oil. then the guy tossed it. that and water. i could not have imagined that being a goat tasted that nice. you should try it more often.
i also saw platform 9,3/4 it exists! who would have thought. there was construction going on at platform 9 where I got off and three quarters of the way down they had marked a section of the wall as platform 9 3/4. it was nice to see.
i visited fitness first which was a bit cramped. the next day i visited notting hill qnd portobelo road. george orewell used to live on portobello rd. its a nice little street with different coloured houses next to each other. its kinda like the housr i live in bradford but slightly smaller and more robust giving them an airer feel. they looked nice. and the colours were awesome. the colour scheme followed through the next few streets as well. it was a nice neighbourhood, somewhere i'd like to live, somewhere you have an unrestricted liscense to be creative.
the shops down that road were awesome too, with prints from banksys art to pulp fiction posters to leather handbags from india. and they were not overcharging either, it seemed pretty fair to me.
kings cross is a big station, liverpool street is charming and oyster rocks.
but despite all these adventures and a few more I learnt and re-iterated that "ROME WASN'T BUILT IN A DAY", it really wasnt. it would have been a massive logistical nightmare bringing all the stuff in together at the same time and too many planners/managers/important stuff would kill each other. that is how i felt sunday night. like everything was pouring in to the same direction and i had too many important things to do in a very very limited time. i got lucky, as i have so many times in the past. it won't always work, it doesn't, i've seen it first hand. but on the other hand, with a bit of spare time, hard work and earnest effort it is quite easy to build rome from scratch. i'm talking about your career now and like everything in your life I have to come to your recue. you do not usually do welk with conventional methods of teaching when either starting something or when you are not in the zone. so start off with video tutorials, youtube has everything and then some. get going, start making a business analyst portfolio, read cv's of experienced ba's, see what they've done. learn to sell yourself, you shortchange on many a occasion. try not doing that. sell yoursekf well. get sone skills if you want. you have a good summer to look forward to, probably the last of its kind, make the most of it. this is your life and its passing you by, really really fast. live it! go to cambridge/oxford for a summer course. go visit granda in june or july, make plans to arrive at apa's birthday. be wonderful, be yourself. you can do this, it is well within your reach. you just need to get to it and play to whatever works well for you.

talk to people, socialise, go places, do gigs, live a little, eat a salad sonmetime, pray, love God, the fear will go away itself.

take care and take charge of your life.

-on a train from London St Pancreas to East midlands Parkway.